Ladies of the Pod

My podcast adventure began about a 15 months ago. I had an idea for a podcast and absolutely no idea on how to create one, much less how to edit and produce it. Thus began some frenzied idea sessions and my business mentor Pat telling me to take the last two months of 2017 and collect some info and take my time to let my creative ideas have time to marinate. That started me on the path of listening to all kinds of podcasts, by all sorts of people, covering a myriad of topics. I listened to style, voice, topic and format. I discovered a lot of men doing podcasts and with time found more and more women. I kept track of things I liked, things I didn’t, found a great episode by Amy Porterfield that gave me all sorts of info about the tools of podcasting.

From there I joined several online podcast groups on Facebook and started reading posts and asking questions. At the same time I had created my Unapologetically You focus group and started asking some questions and then came up with the idea of creating the Woman of the Week series with the weekly blog post interview. In the beginning some of the women weren’t sure they had anything to offer, but the series picked up steam and I had so much fun learning about these ladies and celebrating them every week.

In the midst of that I started the Monday Muse series that were ladies I found on Instagram. I reached out to several and got such positive response. I knew that when I was ready to do the podcast that I wanted it to be about women sharing their stories, just like the blog post interviews. While I was trying to figure out how I wanted the format to take shape, I was listening to a Tim Ferris podcast episode and he had a guest on that was talking about what the key elements are for a podcast. Tim’s response was that he wasn’t that structured with his and the guest gave me the words I needed to move forward. While Tim said that he wasn’t very structured, his guest said you have shape that is important and allows for spontaneous conversations to happen.

After that I worked on finding the tools I needed without spending huge amounts of money and my title, Titanium Blonde Talks. From there I spent several hours just recording myself talking into a microphone and getting comfortable. Then I started reaching out to women to offer invitations to be a guest. It took much longer than I ever anticipated to pull it all together and even longer to work out the editing piece. There were a couple of glitches with the interviews and my old lady WiFi connection that caused more delays and needing to re-record a couple of episodes. The editing was still my main struggle until I found a great YouTube video that showed me the pieces I was missing and I was off and running.

I recorded a couple of solo episodes, finally got approved by Apple Podcasts and uploaded my first two episodes after the intro. In the meantime I sent out DM’s and emails asking ladies if they would like to join me for an interview. Luckily my friend Brittany was my first interview, our second try at recording worked and I started getting more yes’s from my requests.

Fast forward to today and I have 9 interviews live, 4 more recorded that need editing, several more on the schedule to record in January and a brand new monthly series sparked by one of my interviewees. Our first Topic Talk went live in December. It is multiple guests and a specific topic with a free form conversation sharing our own experiences. The chemistry was great, the conversation interesting and I am so grateful to my guests Jenna and Bentley for trusting me to go on this journey. We just recorded our second episode yesterday that will be live on the 25th and had a special guest join in this time as well..

I have had such great response from the majority of the women who have responded to my invitations. For many it is a big step outside their comfort zone and I am so appreciative of their time, honesty and willingness to share part of their lives with me and my audience. My desire with all of this was to create a space for women to share, to create connection and community and to have a safe platform for all of that to happen. It is fluid and growing and changing as time goes on. There are so many women out there seeking some of the same things I was and I have learned so much more than I ever anticipated about the woman who join me on the pod. The stories that these women share are incredible, as incredible as each of the women are.

Thank you to my ladies of the pod, you are now all members of the “Pod Squad” , thank you to all of you who have listened and followed me on this journey to create this space and continue to celebrate women from all walks of life. There is room at the table and you are welcome to join me!

XO

Titanium

Monday Muse: Phoebe Sherman

Please join me in welcoming this week’s Monday Muse, Phoebe Sherman. Phoebe is a yoga teacher, an artist and an entrepreneur/creator of Girl Gang Craft. She’s a lady boss working it all! Phoebe is also a guest on an upcoming episode of the Titanium Blonde Talks Podcast.

1). What lead you to create Girl Gang Craft?

Girl Gang Craft was created by accident. I was gathering a group of ladies to put on a craft show at our friend’s Bike Shop / Cafe (Luckyduck Bicycle Cafe) and somehow I ended up making a website and an instagram. The rest is history! We’ve kinda exploded since.

Since then Girl Gang Craft has expanded to so much more than a craft fair. We have a clothing line and an accessory line designed by me. Our uterus line brings in 10% to Planned Parenthood and we have given them over $1200 to this date. We hosts workshops and community events, and help women build their brands. We do logo design and web design and help women run businesses to be the best they can be!

2).  Where do you go to experiment?

I think I don’t experiment enough. I would love to paint more for fun. What keeps me sane though is my yoga practice. I am a Mysore Practitioner, so I get up every morning ( ok maybe 4 mornings) and go to the yoga studio and do my thing. It is a vigorous physical practice. I am also a big sun lover. When I need to reset I just go lay down on my driveway and soak up that afternoon sun. Having time to myself makes me much more creative and focused after.

3).  What do you purposefully leave undone?

My bra clasps when working. heheh jk.

I am learning to leave more things undone! If I have a do to list, I tend to want to get them all checked off as soon as possible. I’m learning it’s ok to pace myself and do a little less.

4). What is the best purchase you have made in recent memory?

My big girl computer!

5). How has your past shaped who you are?

As an avid feminist and artist I can’t think of anything I’d rather be doing right now. I even studied feminist studies and art in college! Somehow I’m actually doing something in both fields. As someone who has had a difficult relationship with my body, I am happy to be creating a body positive, feminist community.

6). How has failure, or apparent failure, set you up for later success?  Do you have a “favorite failure” of yours?

I think yoga has taught me that everything is a practice. My business, my relationships, my day to day, we’re all just trying to do the best we can. I have learned to not be so hard on myself, I have learned that this whole life is a practice and all you can do is show up with integrity. I strive to slow down always, the Virgo in me has a hard time with that!

7). If you could have a gigantic billboard anywhere with anything on it, what would it say and why?

Fuck Trump! ? That’s all I can think of right now. Or perhaps something more positive. My favorite quote is “Well behaved women rarely make history” -Laurel Thatcher Ulrich. I’ve had a small pin with that on it since I was like in 2nd grade. I think we need to be loud and question everything. We need to deconstruct what we think is fact. We need to strive to be better and speak our truth.

8). In the last five years, what new belief, behavior or habit has most improved your life?

That I am highly capable and that I am able to manifest anything I can desire. But also with some knowledge that I am able to do these things because of my privilege. There is a meme by @riseupgoodwitch “Maybe you manifested it, maybe it’s white privilege” which is sooo true. I am so so lucky to be where I am today and to center myself to bring in abundance. This  is an absolute direct result of my privilege. That being said, I do believe in my power to create and manifest.

9). What is your biggest challenge, issue or stumbling block in your daily life?

Doing too much!

10). What three things are foremost on your mind right now?

Usually food. Then my to do list. Then food. :)

11). What does approaching a breakthrough feel like?

Breakthroughs seem like a big word. I think of small victories.

I am just content to look back at all I’ve accomplished this past year as a whole. Girl Gang Craft is turning one and we are having our biggest event yet August 12 in Oakland at Classic Cars West with 52 vendors. I am so happy to be able to foster a positive nurturing community. I cannot wait to see what is in store for our next year. We are manifesting events in multiple cities. I can’t wait!

Thank you Phoebe for sharing your wisdom and insight. You can find Phoebe on her websites:

https://www.girlgangcraft.com/ or http://www.phoebesherman.com/

Below are a few of her photos and stay tuned for her interview on the podcast coming soon!

Woman of the Week: Jackie

This week's WOW is a longtime friend and yoga student.  Both Jackie and her husband Dave regularly came to my yoga classes in Poulsbo for years.  They travel often to offer vet services to foreign countries that need assistance, have a sweet Air Stream trailer and a bundle of grandkids they love and adore.  

1). In the last five years, what new belief, behavior or habit has most improved your life?

I finally figured out that it is ok to say no.  It’s very liberating to realize I don’t have to please everyone.  I still want to be there for the important people in my life and by letting go of toxic relationships I have more time for those people.  It has also allowed really good friendships to blossom.

2). What is an unusual habit or an absurd thing that you love?

I don’t know how to answer that. 

3). What is the best purchase that you have made in recent memory?

The best purchase has definitely been our Airstream.  I never thought I would want to own a travel trailer but it has been a good purchase for us, we’ve already taken a road trip with two of our grandkids and hope to create more memories taking many trips in the future. The bonus is that we can take our dog with us.

4). If you could have a giant billboard anywhere with anything on it, what would it say and why?

Find something to be grateful for every day.  When we can find something we are grateful for even during our worst days it can change the way we deal with hardships and makes us appreciate the good times.  I think finding gratitude for even small things keeps us grounded

5). When you feel unsure or overwhelmed what do you do?

Every time I’m faced with difficult situations I turn to my husband and we work it out together.  One of the best things about of our relationship is that we just naturally support each other when life throws crazy at us.

6). What is your biggest problem, issue or stumbling block in your daily life?

The little voice in my head.   I am a positive person but I can be my own worst critic. 

7). How has failure, or apparent failure, set you up for later success?  Do you have a “favorite failure” of yours?

As I have gotten older and had to learn many life lessons I realize that there is life after failure and I have to let go of what’s not working in order to open the door to better things.

8). What is the most memorable thing you have received in recent memory?

My last birthday present was a show at Disney World with all four of my grandkids.  Anything that involves my grandkids is guaranteed to make me happy.

9). Who inspires you to be your best self?

I would have to say my grandkids inspire me.  I want the best for them so I know I have to lead by example because they are paying attention.

10). What would you tell your 21 year old self?

You are a strong woman; don’t give someone else the power to silence your true self.

11). What would you be doing right now if money wasn’t part of the equation?

I would travel a lot and take my family with me as much as possible

12). What three things are foremost on your mind right now?

I am trying to stay focused on my commitment to be my healthiest self.

I am worried about the negative energy that is surrounding us right now.

Having just come back from Uganda the poverty I saw in the small villages is definitely on my mind

Thank you for sharing Jackie, I miss seeing you in yoga class!

XO

Titanium

Monday Muse: Brittany Hoogenboom

Please join me in welcoming today's Monday Muse, Brittany.  I met B several years ago on Instagram in some yoga challenge.  So much has changed over the years since we met.  She has embarked on a whole new career path and 9 days ago we got to finally meet in person after talking about it for all this time.  Please join me in welcoming her to the blog today!

1). You have made a big change in your career life recently, what sparked the transformation for you?

The freedom of living my truth and knowing that I am supported not only by my inner being but those around me sparked the transformation. Living my truth has also brought financial freedom and financial wealth in a way that I never imagined. I am more excited about my life than ever before and the fact that I get to spend everyday doing what I do, connecting to source energy, guiding others to do the same, loving life, spreading love, dancing daily, being my own boss, this life is so magical.

2).  What mistake would you make again?

This question is like a paradox. There are no mistake that I would make again because all the mistakes made were divinely planned at the time they were made for growth in that moment. I am transcending my being to align with the highest vibration of myself and if it chooses to have me make a mistake again to learn something over in a new light I receive it by going with the flow.

3). Where do you feel most nurtured?

I feel the most nurtured in my own skin every moment I take a second to reconnect with my breath or dance. When I am smiling and beaming gratitude for all of life.

4). What is the best purchase you have made in recent memory?

The best purchase I made was Thought Cloud CBD and I fell so much in love with the Cannabis medicine in that form and for the company that I joined their affiliate team!

5). How do you build endurance?

I use affirmations and dance. Life endurance comes from connecting with yourself through gratitude and everytime I move my body to music I give thanks for the fact that my body is able to move in the way that it does and that I am living in this life doing what I am put here to do, to spread Divine Love.

6). How has failure, or apparent failure, set you up for later success?  Do you have a “favorite failure” of yours?

Like one of my hero’s Anjua Maximo  (@the_electriclife)  said “We fail up.” Failure gives you opportunities to grow! There is no wrong failure! Choose to grow from that space by reaching for the light in a new direction.

7). If you could have a gigantic billboard anywhere with anything on it, what would it say and why?

haaa I love this question it was say “I AM A MAGICAL MOTHA FUCKER” because when people would drive by to and see it they would be repeating that affirmation to themselves and fuck has passion in it, with that intention of course.

8). In the last five years, what new belief, behavior or habit has most improved your life?

It would take me years to write all of that but one thing that has truly transformed my life is the understanding of how the law of attraction words in EVERY area of life. From money to getting your kids to listen! The Universal Law of Attractions is POWERFUL and I don’t think many people realize how powerful it truly is. I live my life like a vision board and I am grateful to be able to do so because I am attracting all that I want in my life in the name of Divine Love.

9). What is your biggest challenge, issue or stumbling block in your daily life?

My biggest challenge is continuing to align with my truth and keep my boundaries and create the life I want through my words and actions in my marriage because my husband doesn’t put as much conscious energy into his life so I keep reminding myself to listen to my heart, to listen to my intuition, to transmute and create from the law of attraction even if he doesn’t choose so. I AM mastering it and I continue to create all that I seek and want in my life and all that is seeking me at the highest vibrations. I trust in my higher self and occasionally I catch myself letting his worries pull me out of that vibration and I have to talk myself back into a alignment.

10). What three things are foremost on your mind right now?

On my mind right now is growing my business by expanding the 4 week coaching/mentorship session because this is the most exciting thing in my life right now and I am excited to have more and more people join me! I get to go visit one of my best friends, Christina (@Christina_Sutra) who I have met on instagram. I literally booked my ticket as I was answering these questions. Weaving my dreams into reality. I am excited to continue to weave my dreams into reality. I am excited to guide millions and millions of people to self love and connecting with their highest truth to live their truth, and I am excited to become a young millionaire while doing so.

11). When are you the most observant?

When I taking a deep breathe and in a space of gratitude

Brittany, thank you so much for sharing with us!!  Stay tuned Brittany will be on an upcoming podcast episode soon!!

XO

Titanium

Woman of the Week: Sue

Please join me in celebrating Sue this week.  She is my friend Cyn's sister and while we have never met in person, we stay in touch with Facebook...

1). In the last five years, what new belief, behavior or habit has most improved your life?

Faith over fear

2). What is an unusual habit or an absurd thing that you love?

something i want to try and hopefully will become a habit is stand up paddle boarding

3). What is the best purchase that you have made in recent memory?

Bought a new jeep  first new car IN OVER 14 YEARS AND i LOVE IT  Just not a fan of having to pay for it.:)

 you could have a giant billboard anywhere with anything on it, what would it say and why?

Be sure you vote  Ths is so very important now

5). When you feel unsure or overwhelmed what do you do?

Retreat to think thing out and regroup

6). What is your biggest problem, issue or stumbling block in your daily life?

Taking care of my husband

7). How has failure, or apparent failure, set you up for later success?  Do you have a “favorite failure” of yours?

When thngs dont go as expected  go your own way

8). What is the most memorable thing you have received in recent memory?

a bike charm from my son with a heartfelt note about our bike trip to the south if France

9). Who inspires you to be your best self?

my kidas and my grand kids

10). What would you tell your 21 year old self?

get ready for the ride

11). What would you be doing right now if money wasn’t part of the equation?
Lving on the beach in Kauai

12). What three things are foremost on your mind right now?

gettin my house on the Big Islamd done on my budget

the craziness sthat is happening in our countrty

How to enjoy the rest of my life

Bonus question:

When does bravery become foolhardy?  this is a toughy  Not sure that it does ever if you beleive in the cause and can make it work.

Thanks Sue!  As a new car owner myself after 15 years I understand the love of the new car and the not so much about having to pay for it...

XO

Titanium

Friday FIVE!

Friday FIVE!!

This is what I am playing with this week.

1:  Book on audible:  All the Single Ladies:  Unmarried women and the rise of an independent nation.  I purchased this last week and then got an invite from my friend Pat to join a book discussion group about the book for the month of August, can't wait to dive in deeper!

2:  Watching the original Mama Mia movie and the sequel.  Yes it is what it is, but it is lighthearted, happy and silly and GREECE!

3:  Working on the next group of ladies from the focus group for the WOW series and starting to pull together the question list for them all.  I can't believe that I am already into the third group!!

4:  Podcast interview contacts.  I am working on lining up several ladies to record podcast episodes, some of them have been on the Monday Muse series and this will follow up their initial interview there, some of them have yet to appear as a Muse and some are just people I want to have tell their story.  I also have several solo episodes to get recorded as well.

5: Researching new laptop options, after 9 years it is time to upgrade the hardware and give my slowly dying beast a rest.  I will be happy to have things like WiFi connections working again, a non-glitchy keyboard and mouse buttons.  Coming in August the next new toy.  Though I would love a Mac, I just cannot justify the cost at roughly 3 times the cost of a windows laptop...  Oh and a new external hard drive for all the files ever amen.

That's it for this week..  Happy weekend, get out and have some fun!

PS:  here is a little popcicle recipe to beat the dog days of summer heat  

http://www.ovenloveblog.com/orange-creamsicles/

XO

Titanium

Friday FIVE!

It's that time of the week again, Friday FIVE...  Here is what caught my attention this week.

1:  Reading:  A Thousand Days in Tuscany by Marlena de Blasi.  A memoir by de Blasi who is a chef and the second book about her life, the first one, A Thousands Days in Venice.  I am so enjoying her story of Tuscany, which is one of my favorite places on earth.

2:  Summer foods:  I am eating all the berries, peaches, cherries and watermelon I can get my hands on.  I’m busy freezing some of the berries for my smoothies this winter and I have to say that I am loving my cherry pitter big time.

3:  Dreaming of:  a cute little house that I can make my own and fill with great finds.  I am working on just staying open to that happening and not setting up any sort of expectation.  With housing prices the way they are, it will take some sort of miracle for me to afford anything close to where I live , but I am believing the magic will happen.

4:  Audiobook I am loving:  Come as you are: The Surprising New Science that will transform your sex life, by Emily Nagoski, Ph. D, there is some incredible information here that the anatomy geek in me loves and some interesting things that I am learning about how we have evolved and what as women we have been bombarded with to keep us from truly enjoying our sexuality.  If you are looking for something a little more less science and more summer entertainment try this one:  The Lost Vintage by Ann Mah

5:  Watching:  Jumanji, the newish one with Duane Johnson and Jack Black.  Suggested by my new friend and I laughed my ass off through most of it.  Jack Black does an amazingly funny job with his character, I loved it.  Light hearted, funny and enjoyable.

That is it for this week.  I hope that you are enjoying your summer, I have been beach walking almost every day, soaking up the sun and enjoying the doors and windows being open.

XO

Titanium

Woman of the Week: Joy

Please join me in celebrating my friend Joy this week.  Her post is a little late this week due to the fact that she is running for public office and has been busy knocking on doors and doing interviews.  I met Joy eight years ago and this woman is a powerhouse who has worked in several different areas over the years, recently working helping seniors with their healthcare options and doing substitute teaching as well.  Her nickname is Mama Joy and she is one of the most awesome people to come into my life in recent years.  I know that she will do her best for her constituents when she wins her race for election.  All the Diva love to you Joy!

1). In the last five years, what new belief, behavior or habit has most improved your life?

Do what you think you cannot do - Eleanor Roosevelt

2). What is an unusual habit or an absurd thing that you love?

Leaving my Taffy cookies out to get stale before I eat them. (Hey they get soft I love it)

3). What is the best purchase that you have made in recent memory?

A white “pleather” crop jacket for $20. Original price $90

4). If you could have a giant billboard anywhere with anything on it, what would it say and why?

I’d want it posted right off the Narrows heading into the 26th District and I would want it to say - VOTE JOY STANFORD FOR WASHINTON

5). When you feel unsure or overwhelmed what do you do?

Cry and go into my myself and meditate

6). What is your biggest problem, issue or stumbling block in your daily life?

Time, I don’t have enough time in the day

7). How has failure, or apparent failure, set you up for later success?  Do you have a “favorite failure” of yours?

Failure to me means success - because it means I am continuing to try and re-try - When I stop trying that would be the ultimate failure

8). What is the most memorable thing you have received in recent memory?

Text message from my granddaughter telling me she was proud to hear I was running for office

9). Who inspires you to be your best self?

Any and all women who are making a difference to make the lives of other women better

Glennon Doyle

Brene Brown

Nina Turner

10). What would you tell your 21 year old self?

Eat healthy and exercise

11). What would you be doing right now if money wasn’t part of the equation?

Calling bingo for Seniors and traveling to Mexico

12). What three things are foremost on your mind right now?

Raising money for my campaign, doing well in my upcoming interviews, doorbelling the most doors I can

Bonus question:

What do you continually ask yourself?

Have I done the best I can? And if not, how can I improve.

Thank you Joy for taking time out from your busy campaign to share with us.

XO

Titanium

Woman of the Week: Bonnie

This weeks's Woman of the Week is Bonnie, who I met through my yoga classes.  She has been inspiring on so many levels.  We have also spent time talking after class and learning more about each other.  Here is her interview..  

1). In the last five years, what new belief, behavior or habit has most improved your life?
Embracing the phrase - It’s not you, it’s them.  I first thought this was absolving responsibility for interaction and wasn’t having it.  After really noticing people’s responses, it became clear that it’s a really good general guideline.  And even more, I realized that in many interactions, the people I’m interacting with are giving mixed signals about what they are communicating.  Sitting across from someone in conversation there are so many clues as to how this person believes what they say.  Many either don’t care to tell the truth, or they don’t really know what they are feeling, or aren’t listening to what they are saying.  In written media it’s harder but there are still clues.  I’ve started listening with my whole body and heart, and feel better about being confused.  It really is them!

2). What is an unusual habit or an absurd thing that you love?
I love absurdity in all forms.  Skipping down the street, creating a new walk for the Ministry of Funny Walks (Monty Python), shaking off all sense of decorum.  I like to be a kid.  Dammit, I can grab the balls of life and have fun.

3). What is the best purchase that you have made in recent memory?
OK, I’m struggling with this question.  I have bought all sorts of things that I love, but it is a shallow love and I’m not above having shallow love.  So then there are the experiences that I have to spend money to do.  Those tend to create more change and lasting impressions.  The latest is a 10 day silent meditation retreat that was profoundly hard and raised more questions than answers.  I found some deeper parts of myself and avenues to work on.  And love and humor.  And when I find love and humor, all is well in the world.

4). If you could have a giant billboard anywhere with anything on it, what would it say and why?
Be Kind.  It’s so simple, yet if we spend more time being kind to our self and others, the ripple effect could make our world so much brighter.

5). When you feel unsure or overwhelmed what do you do?

I stop and say a prayer that my grandmother taught me:

Encircling arms of love, 

Beneath,

Around,

Above.

There’s also one thing that I’ve been doing as I go to sleep.  I repeat the word trust, and allow my body to sink into the bed.  It’s funny and maybe a bit sad how much I don’t trust the world to take care of me, and it’s a good thing to try in a safe environment.

6). What is your biggest problem, issue or stumbling block in your daily life?
Me!  It comes down to attitude.  Generally speaking on a moment to moment basis, we don’t have to worry about dying, so most of our stumbling blocks is our attitude about what we are facing.  If I check on my attitude, I can change my perspective and things are solvable.

7). How has failure, or apparent failure, set you up for later success?  Do you have a “favorite failure” of yours?
My favorite failure is a crystallized moment of time when I was 29 and thought my life was a complete waste.  Nothing I expected was happening, nothing I was working for felt achievable, I felt like a nothing.  Invisible and worthless.  A friend brought me to a psychic which I thought would be a lark and I would have sunshine blown up my backside.  Then the psychic told me that everything I was focused on was beside the point.  I was furious.  And then.  And then, gradually, I realized that she was right, and all the things I was grasping for were not in my control.  And beside the point.   And the world cracked open a bit and I started working on the things that I could do something about.  And because of a change of perspective, or a change in luck, or focusing on things I could change, things started going my way.

8). What is the most memorable thing you have received in recent memory?
Well, it isn’t the most fun thing to receive, but it is memorable.  I found out I had colorectal cancer.  I had to have surgery that changed the way my body processes food and waste.  I am “cured” yet I don’t function like I used to.  And it sucks.  So all the expectations that I had about my future came into question.  The amount of hubris I harbored and still harbor - it turns out it’s a pretty heavy load.  So I have to begin again, and make friends with my imperfect body and continue to try to find a happy balance between what is and what I expect.  And be grateful for what I have now.

9). Who inspires you to be your best self?
Yes it’s corny, but it’s my kid - an eye rolling teenager.  Besides trying like hell to raise a good human, I’m continually quietly challenged by the way she interprets life.  It’s so different than mine and if I’m listening, it challenges me to look at what I hold dear.  And some of the time, I’m totally busted on adopting social mores that conflict with what I value, so I have to fess up and reframe my parenting rules.  It’s humbling.

10). What would you tell your 21 year old self?
Cribbed from SNL, “I'm good enough, I'm smart enough, and doggone it, people like me.”  It makes me laugh, but they are some wise words.

11). What would you be doing right now if money wasn’t part of the equation?
Exactly what I am doing.  I have every tool that I need to change my situation, and if I was super damn motivated, I could choose to do just about anything,  I’ve spent time thinking about what I think I’m missing - the dreadful YOLO (you only live once) meme.  I’m not motivated to change my circumstances.  I like what I’m doing now, where I live now, and my small scale and happy existence. I’m grateful.

12). What three things are foremost on your mind right now?
Politics

Climate Change

The Truth - the big ultimate Truth

I wrestle with those questions just about every moment, and am trying to reject the guilt and do what I feel I need to do.  It’s hard.  So I turn back to trying to enjoy every stinking’ moment and my tension starts to ease.  Getting my panties all wadded up isn’t going to solve anything.

Bonus question:

Who inspires a sense of adventure within you?
My husband who is a nutty entrepreneur.  He has no critic that says not to embark on something that is out of his wheelhouse.  We have always had crazy sky-is-the-limit conversations and we have done things like sell the house and go cruising on a sailboat.  Others might find it unsettling to reexamine everything during a dinnertime conversation, but I find it sparks a sense of openness and thankfulness to live in a time when we have ridiculous options at our fingertips at every moment.  And we can actively choose to wholeheartedly do the things we feel that we have to do everyday and every moment.  

Bonnie, thank you so much for sharing all of your thoughts and ideas!

XO

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Monday Muse: Laura Brown

Today we welcome Laura Brown from Of Spirit and Bone.  Laura offers intuitive tools for deeper living that include taro readings, intuitive dialog and energy work, a modern therapy option and manifesting sessions.  I found her on Instagram awhile ago and I love her posts, she does a daily taro interpretation and also does deeper dives on her blog.  You can find more about her at her website:  https://ofspiritandbone.com/ 

Thank you Laura for sharing your thoughts with us in your interview.

1). As an intuitive reader, tarosit and coach, what should people better understand about you?

Ha! That I am really not interested in being liked for being liked sake. In my job I have to touch on some difficult topics and deliver some hard truths. In the very early days of my career I was often caught like a deer in headlights when I would come to these moments of challenge, fearful that once I told someone something they didn’t want to hear they wouldn’t like me. But the truth is you can hate me now and love me later, which most find they do because today truth is a pretty valuable commodity.

2).  What’s one thing that you feel sparked a pivotal moment in your life?

I would say that being pregnant with each of my kids sparked pivotal moments in my life. I really was overtaken each time with that Empress, fertile energy that is very inherent during this time. I accomplished more and stretched (literally and spiritually) beyond comfort zones to evolve as a woman but also as a spiritual business owner.

3). Who inspires a sense of adventure within you?

My husband. This man has energy to spare and is always down for an adventure, lemme tell ya! He helps to pull me out of my overly cautious demeanor and try new things. He reminds me that while I am here I better make sure to explore and taste absolutely every inch that this life has to offer.

4). What is the best purchase you have made in recent memory?

Sky diving with my husband. It was something we always said we wanted to do together and the opportunity arrived, and we jumped on it. I am not sure I will ever do it again but for those brief moments of soaring through the air I touched on that essence of being absolutely limitless. I mean, if I can jump out of an airplane is there really anything else I can’t do in this life?

5). Where is your favorite place to be a guest?

The Magnolia Hotel in Downtown Denver. It’s our families favorite place to have a little staycation. We schedule an in-room massage, explore downtown and eat the best food so that when we come home it’s with lots of love, relaxation and appreciation for a pause to our hectic schedule.

6). How has failure, or apparent failure, set you up for later success?  Do you have a “favorite failure” of yours?

The failure of my relationship to my son’s father was the greatest challenge and blessing I’ve encountered in my life. It’s what catapulted me out of smallness, got me to deepen my spiritual practice and ultimately led to me to where I am now which is married to the man of my dreams with a family, home and awesome business. I find that this “failure” like much of the others I’ve experienced in my life taught me something rather invaluable about who I am and what I am capable of. I have learned to look at failures as lessons of where I am meant to grow at this time and that has helped me to see beyond the veil of emotion and towards the bigger picture.

7). If you could have a gigantic billboard anywhere with anything on it, what would it say and why?

TRY.

I think that this tiny word is such a powerful affirmation for life. It doesn’t matter if we fail. It doesn’t matter if we fall flat on our ass. It matters only that we dared to try.

8). In the last five years, what new belief, behavior or habit has most improved your life?

In the last 6 years I have made meditation a daily practice for me. I resisted meditation BIG TIME. Even in my line of work as an Intuitive Reader & Coach I spent many years pish poshing the idea of meditation with the excuse that I just didn’t have the time. I found, however that making the time for this simple practice proved to be life changing. Not only am I much better in my work but I am much better at this whole life thing with meditation in my life!

9). What is your biggest problem, issue or stumbling block in your daily life?

Time management! Ha, I am sure this is something many understand all too well but as a work from home mama with 3 kids, a busy career, a home that needs tending, dogs that want their walks and a rich desire to live this beautiful life to the fullest I have to be very careful to balance. And balance is such an organic, living thing, is it not? It’s not static and its always evolving which is why every day its sometimes a challenge for me to simply find my balance in the waves.

10). What three things are foremost on your mind right now?

The state of this country, my desire to raise conscious children who feel connected to their potential and a desire to love all of the people in my life to the fullest extent of my ability.

11). When does bravery become foolhardy?

Oh, such a good question. I think there is such a delicately fine line between the two! I think for me, however, that bravery becomes foolhardy when I act from a place of ego and not the heart. When ego is prompting my choices I often find myself with egg on my face. But when my heart is leading the way? Well I’ve taken many crazy leaps into the unknown and the bravery paid off.  

Thank you Laura for your down to earth and honest answers!  And yest time and the management of it are foremost on the minds of most of the women I interview and just talk to in my day to day life.  If I could figure out how to fix that for the women I know it would be a HUGE win!

XO

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Friday FIVE!!

Yes it's Friday again, this weeks FIVE!

1:  Reading:  The Gifts of Imperfection by Brene Brown.  I am reading this one again, a little slower this time.  Belonging is not the same as fitting in, in fact fitting in can keep you from true belonging.  We all need love and belonging.

2:  Quote from my functional medical specialist:  All of the men out there that can't get a date, the ones who murder others, who are so disconnected from themselves and from those around them are saying they can't connect and no one is helping them and they don't know how.  For those of us who are connected into our presence, our source, the energy around us, it is easy to misunderstand those that are so disconnected, just look at the present administration and how disconnected they are from the vast majority of the people in this country.  It is an interesting perspective and something that is really causing me to think a little deeper about what it means to be connected into being present, to seek out and connect with others and to hone those deep listening skills.

3:  Podcast:  Hannahlyze This.  Funny, interesting perspective on mental illness and challenges, funny, insightful, honest and just lays it all out there.

4:  Music:  It's summer, well sort of here in Seattle...  Reggae is the sound of summer for me, I created a reggae mix on Spotify just called reggae under my user name:  yogawithsherry.

5:  Naps, boy do I love naps and I have been trying out taking a nap on days when I don't wake up feeling like I got enough sleep.  A 20-30 minute power nap has been very effective.  Even if I don't fall all the way asleep, closing my eyes and resting helps.  Try it, you might like it!

And some grub that I have been playing around with ingredients...  Lots and lots of avocado!!

https://skinnyms.com/roasted-vegetable-quinoa-buddha-bowl-recipe/

XO

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Woman of the Week: Tonya

Meet this weeks Woman of the Week Tonya!  I met Tonya several years ago when she owned her jewelry supply business Whole Lotta Whimsy.  She had the best products and the most wonderful customer service.  She is also a jewelry artist that creates beautiful pieces in her brand new home studio in her new home.  She recently made a climate switch from desert living to mountain living and I see her going to all sorts of jewelry workshops to hone her already impressive skills.

1:  If you could have a gigantic billboard anywhere with anything on it, what would it say and why?
Yesterday is gone. Today is a gift. What will you do with this precious time. Live today like it’s your last!

2:  In the last five years what have you become better at saying no to?
It’s become easier to say no to taking on time consuming tasks or jobs that involve stress, anxiety and anger. I don’t need to start another business, be in a position of leadership (boards, committees, etc), join peer groups, or be the team mom. I am just focusing on me and my work these days and it sure is peaceful and satisfying.

3:  What advice would you give to a smart, driven college student about to enter the "real world"?
It’s a cliche but it’s true....don’t sweat the small stuff. 
I did a lot of work in my 40’s figuring out my undesirable traits, admitting them, and making a plan to correct/change them. I’m a perfectionist driven by my successes and achievements. “More is more” used to be my motto. So for me, it was always about the small stuff because I’m about the details. It wasn’t good enough to do the bare minimum or even to do the average job. However in the end, if this is your last day on earth, you have to ask yourself, would you seriously waste time worrying or fretting about “that thing”. Pick your battles better in your work, your life, your relationships and your expectations of self. Lastly remember what Voltaire said “the perfect is the enemy of the good”.

4:  What is one of the best or most worthwhile investments you've ever made?  (it doesn't need be financial in nature)
The time, teaching, advice, listening and love that I have invested in my child. There is nothing more important in the world than the happiness of your child. I feel a responsibility to make sure that my son, who is now a man, is a productive, empathetic, responsible, loving and joyful part of the greater community of the planet. I also wanted to do whatever it took to teach him how to treat others with respect, kindness and love. 

5:  In the last five years, what new belief, behavior, or habit has most improved your life?
Behavior: moving! Integrating daily workouts and movement has made me more productive, happy and healthy.
New Belief: no one needs to know your opinion and you don’t have to help others all the time. Just listen, nod and agree if you disagree. Voicing your opinion only changes their opinion about you and never about the topic or their passionately held beliefs.
Habit: stop and smell the roses. Seriously, stop to look at the sky, the buildings, the vegetation, etc. Visit more places by yourself, more often, so you have the quiet and you see the details because you are introspective. 
And stop eating carbs...they are evil!

6:  How has a failure, or apparent failure set you up for later success?  Do you have a favorite failure of yours?
There are very few things that I consider a failure. For me they are learning experiences and adventures that make me more successful the next time. If I had to pick one, I would have to say my first retail store because it was not as profitable as I wanted it to be. There are so many things that are part of having a profitable business but when you sign that lease, you have to do whatever it takes to make that location, size of space and business idea a success. That might mean extreme personal sacrifices of blood, sweat and tears but during that experience you will learn a ton. It’s that effort, drive and hard work that makes any experience a successful one. I loved my store and my customers and I learned so much from that experience that helped me make a more successful business with another store, a wholesale company, a marketing consulting company, and a coaching company. Each one lending New failure experiences to the perfect mix of ingredients. My newest entrepreneurial adventure is much more laid back. I’m launching a jewelry and design company. I’ve always been a designer/maker. I’m just manifesting it in a new way!

7:  What purchase of $100 or less has most positively impacted your life in the last six months or in recent memory?
I would have to say that they are experiences at museums. I recently visited Washington DC and spent many days at the museums. They were actually free but so enriching. Not enough Americans take advantage of these treasures. I try to add a day to visit museums in every city I visit!
I also love buying books and researching stories that give me historical info to help my work grow and evolve. 

8:  When you feel overwhelmed or unfocused, what do you do?
Step back, take some 4/7/8 breathing (Dr Weil), and remind myself that it’s just a speed bump. Slow down, reflect, understand it’s not a big deal in the scheme of life, and make a new plan. I also remind myself upon waking and throughout the day that this day is a blessing and gift. It is not promised. How do I want that day to exemplify what I want to Do, Be, Have, and Become? Am I in alignment?

9:  What is the book (or books) you've given most as a gift and why?  Or what are one to three books that have greatly influence your life?
Greg Levoy: Callings
Jack Canfield: The Success Principles
Seth Gooding: Linchpin (I think all high school age people should have to read this book)
Malcolm Gladwell: The Tipping Point


10:  What is one piece of advice you would give to a woman that you wish you knew earlier in life?
Take better care of you girl friendships. Keep in touch and follow through.
Follow through with your communications in all areas of life.
Keep family first, always. 
Wake up and give thanks for life. 
Say no more than you say yes. You need to take care of yourself first. 

11:   What do you think about the theory of "the love of your life", what does that phrase mean to you?
I think “love of my life” can be cliche but you certainly can attract that romantic energy by knowing what you want. Most people don’t know what they want and wanting “love” is too vague. Knowing who you desire (just like knowing your target market) can lead to finding “the one”.
You can also have the love of your life through birth. My child truly is the love of my life. We are forever connected.
I do believe you can meet the love of your romantic life, and you know when you do. However it’s not enough. I believe we are not the same people in our 20’s as our 30’s etc. So we have to continue to work on ourselves, our relationships and our communication as we grow. I have been blessed with a husband who is not only my true love but my best friend too! Our love continues to grow and deepen because we put our relationship first and we work on ourselves individually and as a couple. 

12:  What is something that you would find most helpful in your life right now?  (what would be the best problem solved for you)
I have sciatic nerve issues so I will be dedicating more time to stretching and strength training. As I’ve gotten more movement oriented I’ve also gotten stiffer which surprised me! Ah the joys of aging. Physical health is just as important as our mental health. Thanks Sherry for the stretching exercises. I can’t wait to integrate them into my daily habit. 
This week I am hitting my “fifth level”. I can only imagine what I will have learned and achieved at the “sixth level”.

Thank you for sharing Tonya!

XO

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Friday FIVE!

Friday FIVE!!

1:  Quote I'm pondering:  I am learning to love the sound of my feet walking away from things not meant for me.  Unknown

2:  Words this week:  catalyst:  an agent that speeds significant change or action.       dauntless:  incapable of being intimidated or subdued.    essence:  the most significant element, quality or aspect of a thing or person.

3:  In my ears:  George Thorogood & the Destroyers, a little rock and roll to soothe what ails.

4:  Book:  The E-Myth Revisited by Michael E. Gerber, All about why small businesses fail and what to do to change that.

5:  Captivated by:  My granddaughter

Here is a little tasty treat, because chocolate!

https://thebigmansworld.com/2018/04/05/paleo-vegan-chocolate-coconut-crunch-bars-keto-low-carb/

an extra from an exchange on Facebook: 

Feminism doesn't mean we want to get rid of all penises, we still need and want penises. (said under the breath - some are more deserving of preservation than others).  Best comment:  especially not the tiny angry ones

XO

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Monday Motivation

Finding your passion isn't just about careers and money.

It's about finding your authentic self.

The one you've buried beneath other's needs.

~Kristin Hannah  

Woman of the Week: Kelly

This week we celebrate Kelly.  Another long time friend from my high school days.  She has like me been on a journey to learn more about the power of food for good health and healing.  She has a son with MS and has learned that pharmaceuticals that can be more poison than healing with chronic illness.  Learn more about her story below.

1:  If you could have a gigantic billboard anywhere with anything on it, what would it say and why?  

I would love for a giant billboard to read, “Food DOES make a difference!  Eat More Plants!”

2:  In the last five years what have you become better at saying no to?

In recent years, I’ve become much better at saying no to foods that don’t promote health.  I can easily walk by junk food without feeling the need to eat it.

3:  What advice would you give to a smart, driven college student about to enter the "real world"?

Take time to be in the moment and enjoy your youth.  While I believe a career is important, find a healthy balance between your work life and your personal life. Trust me, in hindsight; you will be thankful!

4:  What is one of the best or most worthwhile investments you've ever made?  (it doesn't need be financial in nature)

My best and most worthwhile investment has definitely been in my children and family.  Loving and nurturing them is what makes me the happiest.

5:  In the last five years, what new belief, behavior, or habit has most improved your life?

As you have probably figured out by now, a healthy diet is extremely important to me.  Nine years ago, at the age of 20, our son Austin was diagnosed with Multiple Sclerosis.  His presenting symptom was something called Optic Neuritis, which has left him legally blind. After watching him struggle with several prescribed, and poisonous in my opinion, pharmaceuticals, I began to research how important a healthy diet is for MS sufferers.  Seven years ago, our entire family went vegan to support him and it has made a huge difference for all of us!  It truly has been an incredible, positive journey, and we are so grateful.

6:  How has a failure, or apparent failure set you up for later success?  Do you have a favorite failure of yours? My favorite failure was when I didn’t get the initial job that I interviewed for at the company that I currently work for, Vitamix.  I knew that I wanted to work for this company, and remained steadfast in my pursuit. Later, a much better opportunity presented itself, and I secured the position. I’m so thankful that I didn’t get that initial job! 

7:  What purchase of $100 or less has most positively impacted your life in the last six months or in recent memory?

The Instant Pot is the first item that comes to mind when I think of a positive purchase that costs less than $100.  If you don’t have one, make the investment.  You won’t be disappointed.

8:  When you feel overwhelmed or unfocused, what do you do?

I have learned over the years that when I begin to feel overwhelmed and unfocused, I need to decline extracurricular activities and commitments and allow myself to have downtime.  It’s usually a sign that I’m overcommitted.

9:  What is the book (or books) you've given most as a gift and why?  Or what are one to three books that have greatly influenced your life?

The book that has most influenced my life is the Holy Bible.  I believe in the Lord Jesus Christ, and thank him daily for the abundance of blessings in my life. 

10:  What is one piece of advice you would give to a woman that you wish you knew earlier in life?

The one piece of advice that I would give a young woman today would be to remain true to yourself and your beliefs.

11:   What do you think about the theory of "the love of your life", what does that phrase me to you?

I believe that you can have more than one true love in a lifetime.  What makes the difference, in my opinion, is dedication to the person that you love. That’s what defines true love to me.

12:  What is something that you would find most helpful in your life right now?  (what would be the best problem solved for you)

I want to see a complete cure for MS!  I believe it’s out there with all of my heart. 

Thank you Kelly for sharing a portion of your life with us.  Food is indeed powerful medicine!

XO

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Monday Muse: Eleanor Macnair

This month we welcome Eleanor Macnair to the Monday Muse interview series.  She is an artist who uses PlayDoh to recreate photographs.  Yes the PlayDoh of your youth used to create photographs, which she photographs and then tears apart to start all over again.  I can't remember how I found her, but I was drawn to her use of the medium and her skill at recreating the works of art.  When I contacted her about potentially being a part of this interview series, she kindly agreed to participate.  She has her work in galleries all over the world and lives in England.  I hope you enjoy reading her interview and I hope to convince her to be a guest on the podcast to dive a little deeper.   

1). How did your journey to re-create photos with Playdoh start and what was your inspiration?

Strangely it all started at a photographic pub quiz in the summer of 2013. The quiz was run by artists MacDonaldStrand – and one of the rounds was to remake a photograph in Play-Doh. So I really borrowed their idea, but they don’t seem to mind! There followed a chain of events which lead to me experimenting by posting a few images on tumblr which quickly proved popular. It’s never been an intentional art project but more of an experiment – although I never thought it would go this far. One book and nearly 6 solo exhibitions later I’m still not sure where it will end.

2). How many containers of Playdoh do you go through in a year?

After I have shot the models I take them apart and reuse the play-doh. The practical reason for this is play-doh does not last for long out of the jar – I usually have about 24 hours maximum to work on a model before the edges crack and dry and they start to fall apart. I like the idea of the models being ephemeral and disposable – a sideways comment on our disposable, throwaway age. The result of re-using the play-doh means that I don’t get through too many pots – apart from white play-doh as the colours can bleed into each other and so the white needs to be refreshed every so often. I think in all I have about 300 pots. Some of them I have been reusing since the start of the project.

3). When you feel your creativity is lacking or unfocused, what do you do?

Each model takes around 7 hours and then the time to shoot afterwards, so it’s quite a feat of concentration. I usually find the most difficult thing is to decide which image to do. I always allocate the time to the project and then just make myself sit down and do it – so there is personal discipline involved. I like to listen to podcasts as I model as it helps to keep my mind focused.

4). How has failure, or apparent failure set you up for later success?  Do you have a “favorite failure” of yours?

I’m never fully happy with the finished images but I always (or nearly always!) post the models on my Instagram and my blog anyway. I think it’s important to show where you go wrong as well as the times when you nail it. People get scared to experiment and feel that they can only project a perfect image online – I think it’s more interesting to show both sides.

5). If you could have a billboard anywhere with anything on it, what would it say and why?

Perhaps ‘Do as you would be done by’. My parents were never religious but I remember my mum told me at a young age that she kind of believed in this saying, and it’s stuck with me.

6). What is your biggest problem, stumbling block or issue in your daily life?

Not enough hours in the day and not enough hours for sleep.

7). Who inspires you to be your best self?

Everyone! Friends, people I read about in books, see on the street. I think being open to many different ways of living and being and realizing that none is necessarily right or wrong – just finding what works for you.

8). What would you be doing right now if money wasn’t part of the equation?

I would probably move to the countryside, travel more and spend all day making play-doh models! My income is currently from freelance work combined with play-doh print sales – so I’d like to give up the other freelance work. But then again, I think that grafting is good for you. I suppose I try not to fantasize about having lots of money because it would make me unhappy with what I’m lucky enough to already have.

9). What is an unusual habit or an absurd thing that you love?

I’ve done ballet from a very young age and I’m not sure if it’s absurd or not but it’s something that if I no longer do it I feel like a part of me is missing. I love the physicality of it.

10). What three things are foremost in your mind right now?

I’m due to have a baby in June so that is pretty forefront in my mind right now… and international politics aside I’m wondering what play-doh model to make next and what to make for dinner.. So nothing at all profound!  

Thank you Eleanor for sharing a glimpse into your process.  As for your answer to question #10, I can assure that having a baby is a most profound experience, I wish you all the best.

XO

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Tidbit Tuesday

In my attempt to find more time in my day to get the things accomplished I need to, I also am trying to find more time for myself.  I am in a place where I feel my creativity is lacking and needs some inspiration and just doing at least one thing a day that is just for me.  I have a few suggestions for you if you are looking for some inspiration for yourself.

1:  Meditate, even if it is just for 5 minutes a day.  There are plenty of apps out there to help, or you can sign up for my email list and get access to my guided meditation page.  Right now there are two to choose from and they last about 10 minutes.

2:  Write, whether that is in a journal, keeping a gratitude log, or writing letters (not emails or texts but a real letter), or any other sort of writing (a book, a blog post, or just free form writing of your ideas).  Give yourself 15-30 minutes just to sit and write.

3:  Color, draw, paint

4:  Dance party to your favorite music

5:  yoga, either in a classroom, from a video or online or just doing a few stretches or rolling with a foam roller or a set of massage balls.

Many times we get so busy doing all of the things for everyone else, our job, driving, all the 'shoulds' we feel we need to do that we forget to put ourselves as a priority.  We have to fill up our cup so that we have something to pour out.

Make time for YOU, whatever feels good to you in the moment!

XO

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Friday FIVE!!

It's that time of the week, Friday FIVE time again!

1:  Quote I'm pondering:  Bravery:  Being in a situation that requires courage.  Boldness:  doing it willingly.  ~Makenna Johnston   

2:  Book:  Loving What Is by Byron Katie, I picked this up once before and got distracted, trying to dive back in again.

3:  Surprises:  The ease of asking for help and actually getting it.  It's not easy for me to ask for help, anyone else struggle with that too?

4:  Those little fingers touching mine as she fills my palm with rocks.  

5:  The thought that we are all just trying to live life the best we can, some just do it with more grace than others.  I'm always seeking more grace in my life.

That's it for this week!

XO

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Thoughts on the Day 4/26/18

Every next level of your life will demand a different version of you...

When we level up, we bring all that we have been to help create that new version of ourselves.  The reality is that we all change with time, circumstances, good things, the hard and while those changes may be so small as to seem imperceptible, those subtle shifts alter who you were before you walked through what was on your path.  

When I look back at my medical mystery tour (soon to be four years in June), my journey started with conventional medicine.  What I learned the hard way was something I knew before on a different level, but this time conventional medicine and my doctor failed me.  While his actions helped to save my life in the beginning, his refusal to listen to my feedback about the side effects I was having from the med he prescribed and his insistence that I stay on the med put me in further jeopardy.  His refusal to take me seriously about the side effects, his admittance that he didn't realize that some of what I was telling him was a side effect (I offered to send him links for his review) and the fact that he didn't truly listen to me and instead chose to keep me on a med I was having a severe allergic reaction to started me on a downward spiral.  Not to mention that I learned about scores of class action law suits surrounding the drug (Xarelto) and the fact that there isn't an antidote for it.  Yes a different doctor told me about that.  I was lucky I didn't end up dead.

Instead what I did get gifted with as a result of his negligence was 2+ years of pain, fear, more conventional medicine and care that further destroyed my health and at one point I seriously was contemplating suicide.  Luckily for me a friend pointed out that prednisone can totally fuck with your head and cause those kinds of thoughts and the fact that my histamine levels were so high and the hives so bad for so long, I had lost all hope of ever getting better.  I had just spent 8 months getting $4000.00 injections each month, to no avail.  

What kept me going was the determination and resolute belief that there had to be a better way than just covering up the symptoms with one more nasty ass med that was worse than the one before it.  I knew that in order to heal I had to find the visionary healthcare professional that would look for the root cause resolution and use the healing power of food, supplements and low impact meds to help me heal.  There were many who didn't believe that I knew my own body, doctors who told me they knew better than I did what was right for my own body.  Family and friends who didn't understand just how bad it really was and I continued to retreat in an effort to just survive another day on little sleep and the constant wonder of just how bad the day was going be.

So I called on something I wrote to myself several years ago to remind myself that I did in fact truly know my own body, my own strength and what was right for me...  "I'm gathering everyday the strength, power, endurance and wisdom to slay the naysayers."  It kept me moving toward what I knew in my gut, my poor destroyed gut, that I had to be determined and dauntless to get past that histamine hell and start to heal.  It took a little over two years but I did finally find the right care, the right med, the right foods, the right supplements and I have been improving every day ever since.  There have been a few small setbacks but as of right now it is looking like I will be able to start taking lower doses of my current med and eventually be able to get off the med completely. 

This was a path of discovery that I never would have willingly signed on for, something I wouldn't have wished on my worst enemy, but something evidently the Universe deemed necessary for me to experience.  This medical mystery tour honed my desire to overcome and rise to the task of boldly taking charge of my own health and being the catalyst for my own healing.  My functional medical specialist told me at my last visit that she always loves to see me because I am proof to her that functional medicine does in fact work.  I share my story because I hope it might help someone else suffering with auto immune issues, allergy issues and perhaps lack of quality care find the help that can change their life like is has mine.  Perhaps even if you are not suffering from a chronic health condition, there might be something in my story that sparks something in your to rise to whatever task is before you and get past what may be holding you back.  That my story may be a catalyst for change in your life on any level that you seek.  

The more we share our stories, the more we learn about one another, the more wisdom is shared and the better chance for connection.  It is what spurred me to create my website and share not only my stories but stories of others, because we all deserve to be seen, heard, supported and celebrated.

XO

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Woman of the Week: Sheila

This week we celebrate Sheila, someone I have known for 40 years.  A mom to three girls, a homeschooler, a volunteer and a grandmother.  Sheila, thank you for sharing your wisdom with all of us.   

1:  If you could have a gigantic billboard anywhere with anything on it, what would it say and why?  Romans 5:8 “But God demonstrates His great love for us, in that while we were yet sinners, Christ died for us.” I find this scripture to be astounding & a wonderful illustration of love.

2:  In the last five years what have you become better at saying no to?   I'm a helper by nature & get satisfaction by coming alongside others, rather than being the leader. However, over the years my "helping" or volunteering began created stress instead. When my husband was diagnosed with stage 3 colon cancer in spring of 2016 I was forced to limit my helping to just my husband and immediate family. Now that he's cancer free I understand not to over-book myself in volunteering. 

3:  What advice would you give to a smart, driven college student about to enter the "real world"?  I'd probably tell them something similar to what I told my own daughters in their college years: Focus on your strengths, work on your weaknesses & always be eager to learn something new. Your outlook on life will influence your decisions & your future, so stay focused on the good in people & situations.

4:  What is one of the best or most worthwhile investments you've ever made?  (it doesn't need be financial in nature) Homeschooling my three daughters has by far been the most worthwhile thing I’ve ever done. Yes, there was also struggle, doubts & times to re-evaluate my commitment, but it was such an adventure (kind of a rebellious adventure) that kept us close as a family throughout their childhoods. Despite (or because of?) my “patchwork” approach to homeschooling, two are successful college grads & my youngest has two years left to complete at the U of O. All three are strong, confident young women who still like to hang out with their momma.

5:  In the last five years, what new belief, behavior, or habit has most improved your life?  Life in general is so much easier when I am thankful. Learning to be intentional in being thankful, especially in hard circumstances, has brought me closer to family & to the Lord. I've always been a very positive & thankful person, but after reading the book, One Thousand Gifts, I have tried to find something to be thankful (grateful) for each day. Some days this was quite hard, especially while my husband was going through chemo & his outlook was uncertain, but just the process of saying thank-you to God for small things was so helpful.

6:  How has a failure, or apparent failure set you up for later success?  Do you have a favorite failure of yours?

7:  What purchase of $100 or less has most positively impacted your life in the last six months or in recent memory?  A few years ago, I started planting flowers & small perennials in pots of different sized on my patio, which I can see them from my kitchen & family room windows. I have found that the process of planning, planting & tending to these flowers really, really makes me happy. Who knew? Just looking outside as I wash dishes from spring to fall makes me smile and uplifts my mood. My planted pots are a hit with the squirrels & hummingbirds, too. 

8:  When you feel overwhelmed or unfocused, what do you do?  When I'm overwhelmed with life I usually unplug from social media, clear off my schedule, pray about the situation & talk it over with my husband over a glass of wine, depending on the situation. If weather permits, going on a short hike or spend time outdoors helps to clear my mind & allows me to refocus.

9:  What is the book (or books) you've given most as a gift and why?  Or what are one to three books that have greatly influence your life?  As a follower of Jesus, the Bible has been the greatest influence on my life. I am an avid reader & book lover.  My favorite books are usually children's or middle-grade books, which is probably because I read most every book my girls did while homeschooling. Powell's used bookstore in Portland is like a candy store to me! I love to buy books for my grandsons in California, my new granddaughter in Seattle & my nieces & nephews. I've even managed to recommend a couple grown-up books to my 25 year old, which she actually liked.

10:  What is one piece of advice you would give to a woman that you wish you knew earlier in life? Don't care so much about what others think of you or at least don't let it stop you from doing what you want to do in life. As long as you are kind & generous, you don't need to be concerned about fitting into someone else's pigeon hole or expectations. (I wish I had heard this as a teenager.) 

11:   What do you think about the theory of "the love of your life", what does that phrase me to you? I think people can have many "loves" throughout their lives. Sometimes we don't actually realize how important (or less important) those loves are/were until we are older & wiser. The love of my life, however, is definitely Bill, my husband of 33 years. It hasn't always been an easy road, but at this point we can look back on our journey be grateful for each other & solid in our commitment for the future.

12:  What is something that you would find most helpful in your life right now?  (what would be the best problem solved for you) My biggest concern in my life right now is dealing with my aging parents & their medical needs. My dear Dad has Parkinson's and dementia and my Mom is having a hard time realizing that she IS actually elderly. We recently moved my Dad into a care facility & my Mom into an independent retirement home, where neither are quite happy. I don't think there's really anything that will help. It's just a hard time for them & for my sister & I as we do what we can to make these last years as comfortable as possible.  

Thank you again Sheila!

XO

Titanium